Changing my mind

It is 1:41 in the morning and I am up hurting..Why?
Because my soon to be husband and I have been auguring every other day for the last 2 weeks and I am tired of auguring. I know relationships have problems but dang....I am having second thoughts about getting married. We are suppose to get married this Sunday Nov 23, but we aren't. I can't...
It all started this afternoon..I don't want to go on a honeymoon big or small after Sunday because we have some other household responsibilities that I feel are more important. Well he wants to go..I tried to explain to him the financial aspect of going and he seemed a little sad. I am a sucker for making people happy despite how I feel about it. Call me a softy LOL So I spent some time on the Internet to find something that would be close and nice. I did and it was $442 I called and told him that I found a spot and he went into this whole thing about me being indecisive because I don't know if I want to go or not. I don't want to go I was just doing this to make him happy. It turn into something else and he hung up on me. Hello Hello I know he did not hang up on me.......
I get home and I lay him out. Not carrying about his feelings I Exploded. The bible states "In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry Eph. 4:26" so I already messed up by sinning in my anger. But I did not want to go to sleep angry, so I got my thoughts together and apologized for my actions and he acted as though I wasn't even there. So I went back and continued doing what I was doing and went to sleep.
He is sleep right now but I will see what his morning brings.